SERIE: "Biografía Espiritual" ILUSTRACION DIGITAL - Spiritual biography- Part of my art process. Fernanda Rojas Páez

            This is a photo montage I made in 2009 to show the process which I lived during the previous investigation to define my artistic proposal. Could say it is my spiritual biography. I did it with personal photos.
           I make it public for those persons interested in knowing me better, and  understand my artwork. And, as always, with the intention that it would be  useful for anyone to understand itself (or) a little more.

First Picture - Origin

-"Origin" represents the time when my spirit begin to set. At this moment many magical and sweet  images play around a baby who just feel the love of her yaya "Granny" Mapuche, her mother and the presence of guardian angel. Do not see the smog, or a distant Araucaria. Neither understands the pain that is in the apartment, where the father is only in a picture. This begins to weave the loom. "
        Characters in this picture. My lovely and beautiful mother. A Mapuche Granny's identified as Virginia, my yaya. The guardian angel (inevitable in the infancy of the children of Catholic families in Chile). Back in the windows of the apartments is a picture of my father. An excellent man, lawyer, politician. He died after 6 days I was born. I met him only through photographs.

Second Picture- To Awaken

           In "To Awaken", a smile decorating the face of the girl. She is entertaining and sometimes amazed at all the happy bubbles that dance around. The wise turtle I Ching, begins to have more presence, Indian religions are interesting, Buddha is wise, the yaya’s  kultrún is also important. Love will save the world!.           I found a lot of faith in my way, many idols, many gurus, many teachers, holy, spiritual guides. They instilled in me faith that humanity had hoped.

Third Picture - Motherhood

            - Between heaven and earth are individual beings (Confucius, I Ching). The land materialize what creates heaven. The mother has the strength and docility of a horse on earth. The father has the power of a dragon who lives in the real world and fantasy world. She  contains the world in her womb. In the Turtle I Ching shell I possible to read the oracle. The mother earth receives and gives his wise teaching.-

         After many trips, I received the motherhood. It was and it is my happy and wonderful landing to reality, to the ground. In the picture I am cradling my oldest daughter. We are knowing each other. This has been the same  with my other three children.

Fourth Picture- Coins

       "Money makes the world go round". In a few coins are fired weapons, in a  coins children cry from hunger and are abused,  in some coins Jesus is crucified, and the war continues, and broken dreams. Love does not save the world, coins make the world go round. In some coins the yaya is persecuted, Buddha is banished, the turtle is hidden, the mother cries.

The landing on earth also show me this painful reality. I think the movie Cabaret (a classic with Liza Minelli), interpret very well that feeling.

Fifth Picture - Death and rebirth 

"Death and rebirth. " The pain of the world it is mine, and my pain belongs to the world. Everybody crying the pain world, everybody cry  it is own pain. My spirit is shocked. People crying and screaming pain. The spirit drowns in blood and tears, cries rend the earth... Until the spirit begins to reconcile with reason.
As also found this in earthly reality, I had to mourn all of it. I had to get to the bottom of my pain to be reborn and to give to me, and  my children, this pain processing.

Sixth Picture-White Orchids

White Orchids get the last drops of pain and love drunk the spirit. It is the beginning of the new building of the spirit. The beauty is real. In the inner self, thousands friendly and magical images entertain and accompany the heart. There is the mapuche sacred wisdom, the Sufis, the I Ching, God. It is possible to weave these strands white, it is possible to weavethe loom.

This journey into the pain brought me back to my inner self, seeking a reconciliation with the world. They were my beautiful children, friendly hands,  friendly voices, who helped me in this work.

Seventh Picture- Eclipse

It is producing an eclipse of both worlds, the Mapuche and the Chinese by the I Ching. Both merge slowly, giving colours, symbols, multiple images, and they can live in peace.

The spirit is happy and growing harmony. The Mapuche weaving looms with the hexagrams of the I Ching, begin to be woven into a single network.

Finally my inner world being harmonized with the external. I recognized and accepted my origin, my earthly reality, my spiritual reality.

Eight Picture - Communion

Communion occurs between the two worlds, they are  integrated into a loom in a cross, the hexagrams of I Ching and the Mapuche sacred symbols. Thus harmonious integrate the spirit of "Granny" my yaya, the Ave Phoenix, the holy Kwan Yin, the kultrún, white orchids, the Chinese warrior, the teacher Confucius, Jesus. Many symbols, and spiritual sacred images are integrated in communion.

I also take communion. I receive this truth in me and for me.

Ninth Picture- Totality

The magic loom begins to weave, the hexagrams of the I Ching, the Mapuche symbols are   in perfect harmony, perfect peace. They can live together in the spirit and in the inner self as well. One or the other are sometimes transparent, sometimes stronger, but grow out from the heart, enlightened by God in this construction of the spirit, my spirit.
So in that form I begin this integration of this two cultures. As I say, I begin to weave the loom. And I begin to realize the first part of the "Dialogue of Reunion ", which I showed in my recent art exhibition.

Thanks for read this.

Greetings

Fernanda